I don't know how to begin...because I'm not sure what to think or how to feel. I know nothing that I type is going to flow, per se...so, I apologize for the randomness.
My heart hurts; it aches. I am sad. I am numb. I am in denial. I am emotional. I am vulnerable. I am letting my guard down by blogging about this...
I received the news that my closest friend through nursing school passed away today. She was only 43. A husband, two children. She and I studied together, did projects together. We worked together at the Burn Center. We saw each other when we had burn consults in the ED. She was a classmate, a colleague, a friend. How do you take that? What do you do?
I should know how to cope, to deal, right? I mean, I've dealt with death and dying at work...on so many occasions, too many to count. There comes a point where you sometimes become 'numb' to situations in order to deal. Have had some close family members & friends pass. My father is much older than most fathers...I've seen many pass on. I planned my first funeral at the age of 20, my grandmother's.
I've learned this week, that yes, we may become numb to situations in our lives, but we still must consider what we're going through. We can't allow the stress and emotions to build to a point of breakdown. However, I'll be the first to admit that I neglect my emotional and mental needs. Because, that's who I am...I'm a nurse, I'm a giver. I tend to the needs of others...
You just never know what life will bring you...You just never know when your time on earth is done. So be grateful for what you have...those around you. Because you just never know...
My heart hurts; it aches. I am sad. I am numb. I am in denial. I am emotional. I am vulnerable. I am letting my guard down by blogging about this...
I received the news that my closest friend through nursing school passed away today. She was only 43. A husband, two children. She and I studied together, did projects together. We worked together at the Burn Center. We saw each other when we had burn consults in the ED. She was a classmate, a colleague, a friend. How do you take that? What do you do?
I should know how to cope, to deal, right? I mean, I've dealt with death and dying at work...on so many occasions, too many to count. There comes a point where you sometimes become 'numb' to situations in order to deal. Have had some close family members & friends pass. My father is much older than most fathers...I've seen many pass on. I planned my first funeral at the age of 20, my grandmother's.
I've learned this week, that yes, we may become numb to situations in our lives, but we still must consider what we're going through. We can't allow the stress and emotions to build to a point of breakdown. However, I'll be the first to admit that I neglect my emotional and mental needs. Because, that's who I am...I'm a nurse, I'm a giver. I tend to the needs of others...
You just never know what life will bring you...You just never know when your time on earth is done. So be grateful for what you have...those around you. Because you just never know...
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